You're so wrapped up in layers, onion boy, you're afraid of your own feelings!!!!
I am flying out on Tuesday!!! So first order of business. My flight leaves at 8:30. So I could call you in the morning before then or in Atlanta between like noon and 3 sometime. Let me know what works best for you, family. Also, I have way more stuff here than I need, so Jeff said (when I ran into him on Wed.) that555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555nhy7825 ik0'14njlp (that was from my companion, she says its Welsh but she might be lying--also she loves you all and is grateful for you sharing me with her, she says I'm awesome and I'm pretty sure its true :) he might try to come find me in my classroom and get it from me and if that doesn't work I will just be mailing it to you. (I hope that didn't completely erase the meaning from that paragraph.)
In other news, I want to actually respond to all the letters that I got last week and the week before that I didn't have the presence of mind to actually respond to last week.
I really loved what you taught me dad about that Heavenly Father will use all of experiences to teach us things that He will be able to use in the future and that He will use them in really small ways to accomplish His work. It reminded me of some really specific direction that I have been given (that I feel like I can share) that it will be as I remember who I am and who I represent DAILY that I will be able to do the things that Heavenly Father sent me here to do. And I think that even though it is something that I specifically need to remember, it is still something that is true for all of us. And as for the China rumors that you have been hearing. That's not the only source that I have heard that from. Its like the 3rd or even 4th. So who knows? But I think its a good sign.
Ok. I really didn't use my email time very well this week. So, I will just share a few little things from this week and be off. One, Heavenly Father really really loves us and go read 2 Ne 4:16-35. Also, I know that this is His work and that I'm exactly where I need to be. I know that He is taking care of all of you from the things that I have heard from you. And I know that He can do a much better job at meeting your needs than I ever could if I was there. If you will let Him help you make your plans and just ask for His help. So thanks for teaching me that.
Sorry about the lame letter... But I still love you all!!!
2 Nephi 4
16 Behold, my asoul delighteth in the things of the Lord; and mybheart pondereth continually upon the things which I have seen and heard.
17 Nevertheless, notwithstanding the great agoodness of the Lord, in showing me his great and marvelous works, my heart exclaimeth: O bwretched man that I am! Yea, my heart csorrowethbecause of my flesh; my soul grieveth because of mine iniquities.
18 I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the sins which do so easily abeset me.
19 And when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my sins; nevertheless, I know in whom I have atrusted.
20 My God hath been my asupport; he hath led me through minebafflictions in the wilderness; and he hath preserved me upon the waters of the great deep.
21 He hath filled me with his alove, even unto the bconsuming of my flesh.
22 He hath confounded mine aenemies, unto the causing of them to quake before me.
23 Behold, he hath heard my cry by day, and he hath given meaknowledge by bvisions in the night-time.
24 And by day have I waxed bold in mighty aprayer before him; yea, my voice have I sent up on high; and angels came down and ministered unto me.
25 And upon the wings of his Spirit hath my body been acarriedaway upon exceedingly high mountains. And mine eyes have beheld great things, yea, even too great for man; therefore I was bidden that I should not write them.
26 O then, if I have seen so great things, if the Lord in his condescension unto the children of men hath avisited men in so much bmercy, cwhy should my dheart weep and my soul linger in the valley of sorrow, and my flesh waste away, and my strength slacken, because of mine afflictions?
27 And why should I ayield to sin, because of my flesh? Yea, why should I give way to btemptations, that the evil one have place in my heart to destroy my cpeace and afflict my soul? Why am Idangry because of mine enemy?
28 Awake, my soul! No longer adroop in sin. Rejoice, O my heart, and give place no more for the benemy of my soul.
29 Do not aanger again because of mine enemies. Do not slacken my strength because of mine afflictions.
30 Rejoice, O my aheart, and cry unto the Lord, and say: O Lord, I will praise thee forever; yea, my soul will rejoice in thee, my God, and the brock of my salvation.
31 O Lord, wilt thou aredeem my soul? Wilt thou deliver me out of the hands of mine enemies? Wilt thou make me that I may shake at the appearance of bsin?
32 May the gates of hell be shut continually before me, because that my aheart is broken and my spirit is contrite! O Lord, wilt thou not shut the gates of thy righteousness before me, that I maybwalk in the path of the low valley, that I may be strict in the plain road!
33 O Lord, wilt thou encircle me around in the robe of thyarighteousness! O Lord, wilt thou make a way for mine escape before mine benemies! Wilt thou make my path straight before me! Wilt thou not place a stumbling block in my way—but that thou wouldst clear my way before me, and hedge not up my way, but the ways of mine enemy.
34 O Lord, I have atrusted in thee, and I will btrust in thee forever. I will not put my ctrust in the arm of flesh; for I know that cursed is he that putteth his dtrust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm.
35 Yea, I know that God will give aliberally to him that asketh. Yea, my God will give me, if I baskcnot amiss; therefore I will lift up my voice unto thee; yea, I will cry unto thee, my God, the drockof my erighteousness. Behold, my voice shall forever ascend up unto thee, my rock and mine everlasting God. Amen.