Stephanie Lofgreen's Letter From Home --I am NOT Dead!!!

December 13,2012

Hey fam!

 

Thanks for all the little lines you´ve dropped me in the last little while. They are wonderful. I´m especially grateful for what you said about love casting out fear. That´s exactly what I needed to hear. I have had a rough week adjusting to everything, but I have definitely felt the strength of the Lord beside me. I am also really glad that you put those verses of Nephi´s psalm that I love in an email to everyone, because then I got to look over them again. and sometimes we just need to be reminded of the things that we already know.  That the Lord loves us. That He is always watching out for us and that His arms are outstretched towards us still. He will never give up on us if we don´t give up on Him; if we keep returning to Him and really do all we can to give Him all of ourselves, He will be the source of our joy and the source of our hope, the source of our rejoicing and this is what we want because His strength never fails. I love how the Lord says in the scriptures so many times that He is faithful.  He is constant and unwavering in His support of us even when we are not always willing to look to Him. He is full of faith in us because He knows exactly what He wants us to become.  He is our creator and who are we to say what He can and can´t accomplish with us.

I am so glad that the Lord loves me enough to ask me to do hard things, to expect more of me and to always give me the opportunity be more, to always give me the opportunity to feel His love. And for the promise we have from Elder Holland, from his talk a few conferences ago, that because the Savior walk that lonely path from the Garden to the cross and suffered for us alone we don´t have to. We will have sorrow and tribulation, but we don´t ever need to feel a lack of His love if we will constantly turn our hearts to Him through constant prayer and just try to take one more step ahead, trusting in His power to guide us.

I don´t know what else to really say besides that I love you all, and I know the Lord is with you.

Good luck with the driving Hannah, and I´m so happy that Jeremy is coming home for Christmas with you all.

 

Also, today is a little weird because we were supposed to have an hour for email 2 days ago, even though we didn´t have p-day because of the christmas conference with our mission on Tuesday. But our leaders forgot to tell us until the next day, when we already had plans.. so we have an hour of email today. but generally it will be on Mondays.

 

My companion is awesome.  Before I got here I had several experiences where I felt certain that Heavenly Father was mindful of both of us and the work He had/has for us to do, and I am more certain of that now than ever.

 

Thank you for your prayers! Keep em comin. We need all the faith we can get on our side.

 

I love you!

The gospel´s true!

 

Love,  Steph/Sister Lofgreen

 

P.S. I don´t really know what´s up with the whole mom being dead thing. Sister Fluckiger is from Provo so... it wasn´t a translation thing... haha. Who knows. I still know she loves me. haha

Stephanie is in Portugal!

Ola Familia!!!

I get to email you to tell you that I’m alive and that I’m in Portugal! Its beautiful, every once in a while I’m scared out of my mind to have to go talk to anyone and others I just can’t wait to get out there, but most the time I’m just happy to take it all in. All the people speaking this language I’m supposed to be able to recognize and the humidity and the beautiful places and the driving and our lovely mission president and his wife.

I have been told the name of my area and my trainer and I don’t remember either. Forgive me.

Also forgive me for the really quick phone call in the airport. I really wanted to be able to say more. And then I tried to call again in Atlanta, but I ran out of time. And just so Jeremy knows I even bummed quarters off of all my elders to call him, but I missed him. I’m so sorry for my inadequate planning, but I love you all. Pray for me! To learn the language, to love the people, and to have faith stronger than my weaknesses.

Also, it is going to take a long time for mail to get here, so we are going to learn how to utilize email really well.

Have the best days and the best week and do your best in everything.

The gospel’s true!

--Steph

You're so wrapped up in layers, onion boy, you're afraid of your own feelings!!!!

Ola familia!

I am flying out on Tuesday!!! So first order of business. My flight leaves at 8:30. So I could call you in the morning before then or in Atlanta between like noon and 3 sometime. Let me know what works best for you, family. 
Also, I have way more stuff here than I need, so Jeff said (when I ran into him on Wed.) that555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555nhy7825 ik0'14njlp (that was from my companion, she says its Welsh but she might be lying--also she loves you all and is grateful for you sharing me with her, she says I'm awesome and I'm pretty sure its true :) he might try to come find me in my classroom  and get it from me and if that doesn't work I will just be mailing it to you.  (I hope that didn't completely erase the meaning from that paragraph.)

In other news, I want to actually respond to all the letters that I got last week and the week before that I didn't have the presence of mind to actually respond to last week. 

I really loved what you taught me dad about that Heavenly Father will use all of experiences to teach us things that He will be able to use in the future and that He will use them in really small ways to accomplish His work. It reminded me of some really specific direction that I have been given (that I feel like I can share) that it will be as I remember who I am and who I represent DAILY that I will be able to do the things that Heavenly Father sent me here to do. And I think that even though it is something that I specifically need to remember, it is still something that is true for all of us. And as for the China rumors that you have been hearing. That's not the only source that I have heard that from. Its like the 3rd or even 4th. So who knows? But I think its a good sign.

Ok. I really didn't use my email time very well this week. So, I will just share a few little things from this week and be off. 
One, Heavenly Father really really loves us and go read 2 Ne 4:16-35.
Also, I know that this is His work and that I'm exactly where I need to be. I know that He is taking care of all of you from the things that I have heard from you. And I know that He can do a much better job at meeting your needs than I ever could if I was there. If you will let Him help you make your plans and just ask for His help. So thanks for teaching me that. 

Sorry about the lame letter... But I still love you all!!!

Steph

2 Nephi 4

16 Behold, my ^asoul delighteth in the things of the Lord; and my^bheart pondereth continually upon the things which I have seen and heard.

 17 Nevertheless, notwithstanding the great ^agoodness of the Lord, in showing me his great and marvelous works, my heart exclaimeth: O ^bwretched man that I am! Yea, my heart ^csorrowethbecause of my flesh; my soul grieveth because of mine iniquities.

 18 I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the sins which do so easily ^abeset me.

 19 And when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my sins; nevertheless, I know in whom I have ^atrusted.

 20 My God hath been my ^asupport; he hath led me through mine^bafflictions in the wilderness; and he hath preserved me upon the waters of the great deep.

 21 He hath filled me with his ^alove, even unto the ^bconsuming of my flesh.

 22 He hath confounded mine ^aenemies, unto the causing of them to quake before me.

 23 Behold, he hath heard my cry by day, and he hath given me^aknowledge by ^bvisions in the night-time.

 24 And by day have I waxed bold in mighty ^aprayer before him; yea, my voice have I sent up on high; and angels came down and ministered unto me.

 25 And upon the wings of his Spirit hath my body been ^acarriedaway upon exceedingly high mountains. And mine eyes have beheld great things, yea, even too great for man; therefore I was bidden that I should not write them.

 26 O then, if I have seen so great things, if the Lord in his condescension unto the children of men hath ^avisited men in so much ^bmercy, ^cwhy should my ^dheart weep and my soul linger in the valley of sorrow, and my flesh waste away, and my strength slacken, because of mine afflictions?

 27 And why should I ^ayield to sin, because of my flesh? Yea, why should I give way to ^btemptations, that the evil one have place in my heart to destroy my ^cpeace and afflict my soul? Why am I^dangry because of mine enemy?

 28 Awake, my soul! No longer ^adroop in sin. Rejoice, O my heart, and give place no more for the ^benemy of my soul.

 29 Do not ^aanger again because of mine enemies. Do not slacken my strength because of mine afflictions.

 30 Rejoice, O my ^aheart, and cry unto the Lord, and say: O Lord, I will praise thee forever; yea, my soul will rejoice in thee, my God, and the ^brock of my salvation.

 31 O Lord, wilt thou ^aredeem my soul? Wilt thou deliver me out of the hands of mine enemies? Wilt thou make me that I may shake at the appearance of ^bsin?

 32 May the gates of hell be shut continually before me, because that my ^aheart is broken and my spirit is contrite! O Lord, wilt thou not shut the gates of thy righteousness before me, that I may^bwalk in the path of the low valley, that I may be strict in the plain road!

 33 O Lord, wilt thou encircle me around in the robe of thy^arighteousness! O Lord, wilt thou make a way for mine escape before mine ^benemies! Wilt thou make my path straight before me! Wilt thou not place a stumbling block in my way—but that thou wouldst clear my way before me, and hedge not up my way, but the ways of mine enemy.

 34 O Lord, I have ^atrusted in thee, and I will ^btrust in thee forever. I will not put my ^ctrust in the arm of flesh; for I know that cursed is he that putteth his ^dtrust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm.

 35 Yea, I know that God will give ^aliberally to him that asketh. Yea, my God will give me, if I ^bask ^cnot amiss; therefore I will lift up my voice unto thee; yea, I will cry unto thee, my God, the ^drockof my ^erighteousness. Behold, my voice shall forever ascend up unto thee, my rock and mine everlasting God. Amen.